Bittersweet Escape

 kemaren bgt. anak gw jatuh dr tempat tidur. tempat tidur genks! 1 meter ada kalik 😢😢😢😢 dunia gw runtuh seketika  gilaaakk jadi ibu ga becus bgt jaga anak😢 mana nona baru sembuh diare, nafsu makan jg blm bqlik normal. huuuaaaa parenthood so challenging yaakk pemirrssaaaaa..

3 months holding not to spill anything..  gila apa ya ntr gw lama2 well.. so many changes during last 3 months thank God my husband get a job on early June. Then as i pray so many times before, i want to be a full time mom, then on 30 june, i put my resign letter, and my last day on 9 july. I remember that day, i cried a lot when my went back home. hhaahha.. So dramatic. and on that day, i went to my parents home until now. Wish that God answered my other prayers fast  we get home in bogor but bcos government decision, all need to be postponed. (f*ck u c19) hahaa i just cant stand with my mom anymore. gimana ya haaha..  hurt people hurt people. gw g pengen jd org yg kyk gitu semua yg gw buat kek salah aj semua label dia trhadap gw yg new mom ini: malas lah,  g bs ngatur waktu, berlambat2 oh yg plg parah ga jarang doi blg, ga nyangka mama, kamu akhirnya jd IRT (kek hina bgt jd IRT maaannn), ga sesuai ekspektasi mama dan lain sbagainya. the other side, smua org support...

 Wow!! my #nona already 6 months on May 2nd. OMG how time flies. Now nona will have MPASI. Another challenging step. Now shes getting beautiful than ever. I love her so much. Sering ngrasa berslh, karna ga bs hadir 24 jam, karna harus bekerja. Oh God help us.

 Masih berusaha meyakinkan diri, as A MOM tuh fulltime 24-7 job ya.. amazing. most of the time, doubting myself, bisa g ya jd ibu yg bener, yg baik.. bs ga ya, ngdidik yg bener.. anak gw nyaman g ya sm gw. anak gw kenapa ya nangis, ada yg salah kah? sakit kah? gw salut dah utk smua ibu2 dluar sana.. yg menghadapi perjuangan yg sama dan nailed it. With God as my mentor, i can walk through it all..

 Its so amazing watching every milestone she did last saturday she was 2 months, and she already 5.25 kg. Amazing.. shes getting chubbier..haha.. ginuk ginuk 😍 udah kerasa berat banget d gendongnya. udah mulai bykn DBF drpd dot *horaayyy* bersyukur bgt ASI dsiapkn cukup oleh Tuhan setiap harinya, dan terus bertambah sesuai kebutuhan nona.. Praise the Lord.