I just cant ..

3 months

holding not to spill anything.. 

gila apa ya ntr gw lama2

well.. so many changes during last 3 months

thank God my husband get a job on early June.

Then as i pray so many times before, i want to be a full time mom,

then on 30 june, i put my resign letter, and my last day on 9 july.

I remember that day, i cried a lot when my went back home.

hhaahha.. So dramatic.

and on that day, i went to my parents home until now.

Wish that God answered my other prayers fast 

we get home in bogor

but bcos government decision, all need to be postponed. (f*ck u c19) hahaa

i just cant stand with my mom anymore.

gimana ya haaha.. 

hurt people hurt people.

gw g pengen jd org yg kyk gitu

semua yg gw buat kek salah aj

semua label dia trhadap gw yg new mom ini:

malas lah, 

g bs ngatur waktu,

berlambat2

oh yg plg parah ga jarang doi blg, ga nyangka mama, kamu akhirnya jd IRT (kek hina bgt jd IRT maaannn), ga sesuai ekspektasi mama dan lain sbagainya.

the other side, smua org support bgt bhkn mengapresiasi kptsn gw.

funny right, nyokap lo gt. tp ngerendahin lo.

i feel kek byk bgt dia g fair, trutama mnyngkut psgn gw. gimana dia mperlakukan dan menganggap psgn gw.

man, ngetik gini aj gw pgn nangis.

ya sudahlah.

trima aj.

ga perlu koq pngakuan dr siapapun trmasuk nyokap lo sndiri. Cukup Tuhan aj.